I got summoned...

I came home and found a jury duty summons in the mail. I report April 23. In my life I've been summoned three times. I've managed to get out of all three, but I just don't feel justified in shrugging my civic duties again. I'm petrified because I'm not too savvy in the legal world around me and I really am not that savvy about life other than what I've experienced, which isn't saying much. I live in a nice comfortable bubble. I don't mind it, others might say it's ignorance. I suppose it is an many ways, but life has a way of teaching me at my pace. We'll see what happens. I've already go all sorts of advice from friends on who not to get selected. I don't think any of them are serious plans of action. Maybe, just maybe I'll learn something from it! Heavens knows I could use a bit more knowledge in my head! More than anything, these sort of things upset me because I'm so shy when it comes to doing something alone and this forces me to venture out alone, without the comfort of knowing someone. These things work out, but in my head I freak myself out to where inevitably I so something stupid that I laugh about later or write in my journal and am embarrassed about for a spell. I'm much like a lab rat, I like my routine and don't break from it very often and don't like it when I have to. This is God's way of forcing me to think outside of myself and step beyond my comfort zone!